I'm leaving tomorrow for Baltimore to visit some old friends. I'll be gone a week then I'll be returning to California to pack my things and leave. I didn't do this the wrong way this time no turning tail and just ducking out...I simply was honest it bled a little bit but after the initial shock talking happened and we are parting ways. I'll be returning to the south despite some people's objections. I have some friends there...and such is the place I have a chance.

I've started going through all those things in me I've forced myself to forget or to look away from. Their painful...but its a necessary part of this. I'll be taking some time to sort myself out and do what's needed in my own head because I can't keep doing this to myself.